dear....

Dear dad, I know dad wouldn't be reading this, because daddy didn't know my blog website. I also know that everything is just useless I wrote here. but at least my heart is becoming a little bit relief. Dad I love you so much. but, sometimes I get irritated. As many of you're over protective. I know that you are worrying about me, but, I'm not a little kid anymore, dad. I can take care of myself. I am now 19 years old. I already know which ones are good and which are bad. you always scold me when I go out with my friends, as if you hate my friends. my friends are a good person, we joke, we don't drink alcohol. Yes, we were only joking, playing, and laughing together. but you are always upset when I got home. I can what? Yes, just silent. then when I stay home all day, you asked me why I just being in front of a laptop every hour. I'm doing this because I'm bored. We never go on outings with family, you said '"the beach was in danger ...", I knew you loved me, but I also want to live like other friends. that I want is simply appreciate opinions from me, daddy. don't curb our continued. your children are grown. We have our own choice. don't worry dad,  we'll be fine. 

Sincerely your beloved daughter,

R

a novel by Aiman Bagea - Ketika...

Cinta datang mengendap-endap dalam kehidupanku. lalu pada detak-detak yang tak aku ketahui sebelumnya, cinta menyergapku dengan sepasang sayapku yang lembut  bagai serpihan awan di langit. Awalnya aku mengelak bahwa cinta bukan begini. Tapi, semakin aku mengelak, cinta kian erat mendekapku. Melumpuhkanku. Membungkamku. Dan... menyihirku. 

Cinta tak akan pernah mengumumkan kedatangannya. Cinta begitu saja menyusup, mengelus-elus sesuatu yang lembut di liang hati, memendar sekian lama, sampai akhirnya membaur bersama hati dalam bilangan waktu yang tak terkatakan. 

"Hidup hanyalah abu-abu sebelum aku bertemu denganmu. Aku lupa cara mengeja tawa, dan aku lupa bagaimana cara berharap. Juga lupa bagaimana cara mencinta. Ketika bertemu denganmu, tak kurasakan lagi ruang kosong dalam jiwaku. Bersamamu, waktu terasa berjalan cepat"

11 p.m

So many things I want to say to you, but I choose not to, I’d rather be hurt than to hurt you.  I’ve changed, and you were the one that changed me. I fight with myself hoping one day I wake up and realize you don't mean anything to me, I hope one day I wake up without the disappointment of not seeing your name pop up on my phone. I wish we could trade places so you understand how I'm feeling.  I probably don’t even come across your mind like how you do on mine.  I’m more than willing to go out of my way just to see that smile on your face, to treat you how you deserved to be treated.

well, good night xoxo.

I've forgiven you for leaving. I've forgiven myself for staying

"You've been the sweetest part of my life, Kik. and I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if you ever left. I'm scared that you would find someone who is prettier, who is more interesting, and more attractive. I'm scared that you might leave me soon"

Although I fully understand that nothing lasts forever, and happily ever after is only for Cinderella and her prince, its undenieable that I would never be ready if that time for us to say good bye.  

I realized that I have drowned into love way too deep, and I started to worry about everything. I'm not being hyperbolic but its true.
now I should be able to accept the fact that you didn't want me again, like I used to.  You had your choices, and I had mine. We all have our freedom to decide. We all have our preference to experience. I've forgiven you for leaving. I've forgiven myself for staying. I apologize for all my behaviour makes you irritated over this. I now realized, that my behavior was bad and you don't like because of it. I'm a Hyperbola. I'm childish. 

Now you can go, look for someone can make you serene setting any time. 

 I did not change. I'm just learning. that life doesn't always have to be happy. 

sincerelly, Ratih Kharismawati.

makan!

ini udah jam 11 malem, tapi mata nggak ada ngantuk-ngantuknya sama sekali. harusnya ini malam buat ngepuasin mata buat tidur setelah sekian minggu tidur pagi buat ngerjain laporan. biasanya aja kalo buat ngerjain laporan mata ini udah nggak bisa diajak melek, maunya merem terus, emang bener-bener nih kelakuan mata.
karena bingung mau ngapain gara-gara nggak bisa tidur, akhirnya aku buka blog, dan punya keinginan buat nulis-nulis gitu ceritanya, tapi setelah ngeklik 'new entry' jadi bingung mau nulis apa. kira-kira apa yah enaknya? bosen kalo nulisnya soal kuliah mulu, permasalahan di perkuliahan tiada habisnya untuk dikeluhkan. praktikum farmakognosi misalnya.
lagi ngepost begini, keingetan sama laporan farfis, semsol, sama biokim, ditambah UKD biokimia pula di hari senin besok. Sedih ya kalo liburan keingetan tugas -___-
mari beralih dari tugas!!!
bayangin makanan yang enak-enak cobaaa

 ini makanan kesukaan, TENGKLENG. dulu suka beli ini sama ibu di samping SMP 2. tapi sekarang warung lesehannya udah tutup dan gak jualan lagi sampe sekarang. sedih kan

yang kedua, SATE BUNTEL. Udik parah kan baru nyobain sate buntel pertama kalinya beberapa hari yang lalu, beli nya di Galabo, harganya Rp 25.000,00 udah sama Es jeruk 

yang mau nyobain, bisa aja langsung dateng ke Galabo malem hari, dijamin sukaaa!

 naaaah ini yang paling enak, apalagi masakannya ibu, paling enak seduniaaaa! SAYUR ASEM-ASEM! rasanya pedes manis asem asin jadi satu. suka pokoknya

ini namanya tahu baso, pasti udah nggak asing kan, tahu baso paling enak yang pernah aku cobain itu tahu baso oleh-oleh dari @novidtacahya, dia beli dideket rumahnya, di Ungaran. Katanya, disana banyak yang jualan tahu baso dan udah jadi kayak makanan khasnya sana gitu. kalo mau tahu baso ini, bisa pesen ke @novidtacahya =))

naaah ini martabak keju, martabak keju yang enak yang ada di samping gerbang belakang UNS. serius enak banget! martabak keju creamernya sampe tumpeh-tumpeh tapi enak banget, tiap makan satu potong kan biasanya abis itu langsung eneg, tapi ini enggak, mau makan terus rasanya -____- 

bisa deh cobain beli, harganya Rp18.000,00 di sebelah gerbang belakang UNS yang mau ke arah ngoresan. Enak lah pokoknya hehe

 

gimanaaa saudara-saudara? ada usul lagi makanan yang enak-enak?